When you’re new to a city, it’s easy to look around and feel like you don’t fit the part.
I’ve had the last three weeks off to get acclimated with Chicago. But really, it’s been more like three weeks of feeling like a country bumpkin compared to people doing their thing in this town.
A list of things I don’t have that it seems most Chicago girls do:
2) A long, grown-up coat (not like the short puffy one I just bought last year)
3) A Starbucks cup in my hand at all times
4) A set group of friends
5) Perfectly manicured nails
6) iPod buds in my ears as I walk the city streets (I have an iPod but depend on friends to download new music onto it cuz I don’t know how to do it. Which brings us back to #4…)
I should probably stop before I get really bummed out.
Really, I shouldn’t be surprised by this feeling. I’ve had it before, when I went away to college, when I moved to Milwaukee, to D.C., etc. In some ways, this is exactly what I signed myself up for, choosing to leave my comfy life in Brewtown to test my mettle in a foreign town.
I truly do believe it’s times like these when you learn the most about yourself and see what you’re made of. In a few months, I’m sure I’ll remember this entry and say – things have definitely come a long way since then.
It’s just funny to me that even though I consider myself a pretty confident person, a change of scenery can really shake that confidence for a while.
I wonder if this is a weird insecurity thing that only exists in women or if all 20 and 30-somethings go through this when they relocate?
Thankfully, my friend McConnell helped to put things in check. I told her about my list, which she asked me to break down for her one by one.
By the time I got to number two -- and she deadpanned, “OK, and why do you think a long black or brown coat would make things different?” -- we were both cracking up laughing.
And I was feeling so back to myself that I decided to forget about the list for awhile.
PS) Start my new job on Monday so I should be back to a more regular blogging schedule. Thanks for bearing with me during this time off!